Inside I'm screaming 'I love you'

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

_you promised to stay here with me, will you please not leave ;

im feeling terrible inside.
suffering like fuck.

feel like vomiting.
headache.
coughing my lungs out.
sneezing and sniffing nonstop.

im supposed to get well today.
i promised darling i will.

i miss that silly darl.
all i can think about is you.

~~she's leaving today.~~
will only be back on sunday.
HOW NICE. ):
-CRIES, SCREAMS

was a last min decision.
i didnt expect to be true when she told me.
when she told me, im lost.
lost in the world.
im left outside alone in the world.
HOW ?

she ask if i could follow.
kinda obvious, i can't.
i wish i could. ):
put me into your pocket!
put me into your bag! ):

sigh. tell me how.
i know, crying doesnt help.
but, the heartache is there.

i can't accept the truth that ure leaving.
i want you to stay lah. ):
i don't let you go.
i don't allow.
cannot go and take train!
i don't care lah! -pouts
you're suppose to stay and take care of me!
you cannot leave.
if you do, who's gonna protect me from harm?
i told you, i'm scared. ):
who's gonna accompany me in the night?
who's gonna coax me to sleep?
who's gonna buy toy toy for me?
who's gonna make me smile till my jaws are painful?
who's gonna take care of me?
who's gonna bring me to work?
who's gonna sit in the corner of the train with me?
who's gonna fight away all my fears?
who's gonna hug and kiss me to sleep?
~~who's gonna mend this broken heart?~~
WHO? all i want was just you! ): and i can't have it.

; will you come home and ~~stop this pain~~ tonight))`

; stick with you